In Between Sniffles

Well, this is from a girl who's stuck at home, trying to do something productive, but ends up in bed once more; only with her BB on one hand, the iPod on the other, and yeah this is being written in between sniffles.

Funny how I've been asking for a break for the longest time and then just like that, one day, I woke up with a bad case of colds. High fever next. Then, I'm down.

I want to be busy. Busy with something I love doing. Busy with something that will bring me to different places and something that will allow me to experience new things.

It's sad that we often end up with things we don't like. Truth be told, I am not too happy about certain things in my life right now. One thing that keeps me sane though is the fact that I got the power to choose to remove myself from this situation. Alright, I'm not stopping until I find myself again..

Alright, these sniffles are killing me and it's going to my brains so I better stop..

Yeah, so toodles for now.

-J
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Why

Why do I have to be here? Why are loved ones seem so far away that they are out of reach? Why are my goals seem so unattainable? Why are my dream seem so hard to achieve? Why are my why's seem endless? Do I aim too much? Should I settle for what I have and not look for better opportunities? Why? Tell me why...


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•sigh•

I don't feel like doing anything..
My heart feels heavy. I wanna run out of here... Like right now.
•sigh•
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The Queue

It's a routine for me that after work, I head to Ayala to line up at the terminal so I could go home. Oftentimes I don't really think much of the things that I do when I'm in the queue. I just "go with the flow" which basically means line up and stare.

Tonight's different. I actually had a real conversation with the woman in front of me. Define "Ms. Congeniality".. Well yeah, you can point all your fingers to me now. I just realized that there's no harm done in smiling at someone and conversing with them. Well, I hope I was able to help the lady out. As for me, I'm just glad that I was able to have some sort of real interaction with someone.

Alright, there goes my adventures for tonight. Seems like there's more in the days to come.

-J
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On the Line

Waiting in queue, here I am, finding ways to become more productive. The queue tonight is exceptionally long. Is there a transport strike that I am unaware of? I wonder..

I see commuters looking blankly ahead. Others listening to music. Some are talking over the phone. While others stand straight looking sharp and on-guard.

I wonder what these people are thinking of? Have you ever wondered about other people's concerns. All of them have this poker face right now. It's quite difficult to decipher who has pure thoughts and selfish ones. I wonder if they're thinking of helping others or nothing at all.

Well, here I am trying to wonder how to make use of my time wisely by challenging myself. I wonder about others. I was thinking.. If everyone takes the time to internalize and think of something to help others during times like these would help bring forth change in our society. Wouldn't that be great?

But then again, these are just but ideas...

... Mere thoughts of an idle commuter like me right now.

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New Year, New Me

Life has been toxic lately to the point that I feel I've been buried alive. In fact, last Friday, I had to go home a little after lunch because I got a migraine and I started feeling nauseous. Yeah, talk about stress. Nonetheless, I'm still looking forward to what this year promises to bring -- from the "end of the world" (say whaaaaat?) to the promise of new experiences.

It is my goal to share this time all my rants and random experiences as often as possible. For all you know you'd be able to pick a lesson or two from me.

That's it for tonight. Off to slumber I go. Gotta be ready to face the work I left behind last week.

2012, bring it on!

- J
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